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2008-03-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

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Sweet Dreams My Littlest Joy

2008-03-12T07:03:00.004+08:00

Babyshambles-There She Goes

Its 7am in the morning and I havent slept a wink eversince the tragedy at 2am.
My theodore, the new mother of 3 adorable babies has passed away.
What could have believed to cause her death could be the fact that she got stucked in between the wheeler and the cage and couldn't make her escape.
She does that every single day be it whether she was pregnant or not.
But she couldn't escape from it now.
Nothing could bring her back now, not a visit to the vet nor Alvin or her babies.
I may sound like a pussy, but she brought about alot of joy in me for the past 3 months...

Whenever I was down or just couldn't care about anyone or anything, She and Alvin was there for me as and when I need them.
Maybe its my fault. Maybe I didn't paid much attention to her.
I should have taken out the wheeler.

What an idiot. Brainless idiot.

Now, who are the babies gonna turn to for milk and motherly care?
Who are gonna nest them under their stomach and give endless warmth.
Who? Who?

Im sorry my babies and Im sorry Theodore.
RIP my sweetest babygirl...
I promise Id take care of them as much as I can. I promise...

There she goes a little heartache
There she goes a little pain

This is worst than mending a heartbreak

(18.01.2008-12.03.2008)

three little hamsters

2008-03-09T16:36:00.008+08:00

taylor swift-teardrops on my guitar

like most of you would have known by now that my beloved hamster which my whole family thought was a baddie cause she bite alvin has given birth to 3 mini dwarf hamsters last tuesday morning. Cute? Totally adorable. She gave birth ard 1am and I watched it till 3am. Yeap, totally insane. I didnt sleep well cause I was afraid it would eat up the babies. So, I'm a grandma now. HEHE. =)

Lina requested for pictures of them. so here you go!

(the pics arent that clear as the mummy is afraid that I'd take the baby away and also apologies for the quality of pics as some were taken by the hp camera)

Newborn:

At the top right hand corner of the cage if you see some reddish thingy those are the 3 dwarfs!

The process of the second baby!

After 1 week:

It has turned pinkish and now the black stripe on their back is more obvious!

One of the babies crawling around. =))))))

Outs.

i love you

2008-03-05T01:24:00.004+08:00

no one, not any man/boy/guy has ever made me this happy.
I am the happiest girl in the world right now.
I truly am.
Thank you so much for that beautiful no-words-can-describe belated present.
I love it so much. But not as much as i love you.

On a stupid note,
I love your jokes.
"Im going to make my own clothing line, 1) Fad Perry 2) Fad Sherman 3) Fadidas"
Ouh. Very original.
Fadidas is my favourite.

We sure are cute for 2 ugly people

2008-02-29T00:48:00.002+08:00

The Moldy Peaches - Anyone Else But You

Caught Juno with boyfie on Tuesday. I give it 4 out of 5 stars.
Both of us thought it would be a stupid show.
But it turned out to be quite a clever and amusing show.
Now Im stucked with the theme song.

You are always trying to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see,
in anyone else
But you

Weirdly the boyfie has been showing tantrums over nonsensical things.
I thought I should be the one pms-ing. *_*
Whatever it is, Im waiting for you to say "im sorry by...(with that pathethic voice)"
Cepat cepat! Haha.

Im looking for a temp admin job that pays around 1.5k
Any lobangs?

Oklah itu jek. Bye

Vicious Cycle

2008-02-24T22:14:00.006+08:00

Cool Rider - Soundtrack from Grease 2I want a coo-oooo-ooo-ooool rider.c-o-o-l r-i-d-e-r!
Watching Grease 2 was like watching High School Musical
but a way way way better version.
Ive always liked the first version of Grease and how
John Travolta rocked my primary school socks!

Buddy, I want to go chinatown and fully explore it please?

The next time we want to go sheesha, lets go together with

Yana, Addafiq and Fad (the super smokers) !

So it wont look like our table is not giving out any smokes. HEHE.

TP is nearing. I'm prepared for the worst.
I mean, whats the probability of a female passing on the first try?

Very very low.

Ok tata~

i want to watch my hero

2008-02-21T01:41:00.008+08:00

Master's Symphony- DJ Outblast

When others think otherwise,I really think you're fantastic in every way sweetie. My godsent angel with such a funny smile. You look especially stunning when you look in your best. Ouh, please do that everytime. =D

Lets roll!

YUMMAY.@ Charcoal restaurant and barFruit punch. Rating :3.5/5Seafood soup. Rating: 1/5 Tiny scoop of kiwi ice cream. Rating:2/5Beef wrap. Rating: 0.0000000000000000000000001/5 (dont get me started)Berry dessert: Rating 4/5 (Its hard yet interesting)Famous amos double chocolate cookies. Rating: Too good to be rated. (okay out of the pic.hehe)Such a hilarious experience. (he's getting chubbier)Nice right? Photographer: Yours truly

Everyday is Valentine's day <3

Lesson learnt: Dont pandai2 to go for fine dining when you dont even know what cutleries should be used first. And if you guys would like to go for fine dining, please not charcoal. The food represents the name. HAHA.

I love makansutra. I love love makansutra.
I think the next time you guys see me,
I'd prolly look like norbit and
everytime you ask me of a place to eat id say: MAKANSUTRA.
lets go!

k thats all. bye

Period

2008-02-16T16:43:00.003+08:00

MCR-Disenchanted

I'd like to think of myself as a fair individual.
What I wouldn't like to be smacked onto my face wouldn't be done on others.
I've learnt that karma does exists.
The simple saying of what goes around comes around is real. Believe it.
The turning point in life made me realised of how immature and self centered I was.

People ask, why do you put on make up for? Shouldn't you be all natural?
Well people, I'm not one blessed with beauty.
I've got tons of flaws that has yet to be maintained with a precised technique
other than what has been put on right now.
So, stop asking. Buzz off.

The feeling of being shut off on every occasion is not pretty. Not at all.
Well, you do have things to settle, who doesnt?
I'm not being insensitive or sarcastic, but sometimes you just have to learn to let go and free your mind.

I wish I was born rich, pretty and smart.
I want to be like those lj girls who talk about shopping on almost every entry.
Their sentences are so similar.
"Oh i tried to refrain myself from shopping but I couldn't help it!"
Who could help it right?

Now you guys know why I wear make up and wear the same shit over and over!
Bravo now go tell the whole world.

Ouh, love's a bitch.

Animal Instincts

2008-02-07T01:09:00.000+08:00

Common feat Lily Allen-Drivin' Me Wild

SPECTACULAR SPECTACULAR
(it would be a pretty long entry due to pictures, which is not something new)

fierce uh the rhinoIndonesian touristEWWWWW. RATS. alvin and theodores cousins. HAH.

BeautifulLepak no.1
Macam pahamEh ZIHUI!

Lepak no.2

EH INTAN! WHAT YOU DOING?They were fighting. One of them was bleeding. Told you they are fierce.AWWW.Cmon ppl.AWWWWWWWPretty kittyLepak no.3

KING OF LEPAK!!!

Bye bye my animal friends. =(

pop goes the weasel

2008-02-04T15:44:00.000+08:00

Well, I can't deny what we squabble about is definitely nothing of a great deal.
But like I've said countless times and I'd say it again,
its the little things that matters.
When little ones are combined together,
they tend to be pretty disasterous.
Way worst than the big ones.

I feel the urge to barf right now.
Barf my intestines out.
Accompanied with the juices.
Eww. Hah Interesting.

I think, I want to go kill Intan Baizurah Bushra. SO FUCKING PRETTY.

Dear Dayyah,
LETS HANG OUT REAL SOON!

Ok bye.

is there more to love?

2008-01-29T12:30:00.000+08:00

i have my earpiece stucked to my ears but there are no music flowing out of it. i think, my brain is damaged. due to supply chain, crm, bsi,ccom...EVERYTHING.

I am sick mentally and physically right now. So sick. but im glad i have my two sons(my hamsters) to make me smile everytime i wake up and everytime im about to leave my house. What a blessing in disguise. I love you alvin and theodore.

There would be a time when you feel like giving up and just letting go of what you've been holding on to for so long. I'm feeling that that way. Yet, there are so many hands stopping it from dropping. I know you dont understand. But I dont care. I just want to express myself in the weirdest way. So tell me, what am I supposed to do now?

This is not as bad as the video i secretly took. To Lina, Ayu, Sherlyn: Check out his video in my hp when youve got the chance! hahah!

Alvin!!!!

K bye.

180108

2008-01-18T23:36:00.000+08:00

Hello again.

I love this years birthday very much. Thanks to all who wished from the first to the very last. Without those wishes, I wouldnt be a happy girl now. Im still a girl okay.

Big thanks to Shu Jie, Zihui, Wan, Yana, Sherlyn, Ayu and Linah for having dinner with me. It was a blast! =)

Wan has got shit on his teeth. Can see?Yana's bringing sexy back.mafia They sang me a fish n co birthday song and my beloved friends laughedOkay its official, Im 20 but with a 6 yrs old hairstyleThank you my lovelies for the present!(i think SJ is getting fairer. look at those pair of feet.)My birthday surprise from abang. so sweet! hurhur.Meet mentel aka cheeky

Have a good weekend!
Tara~

2008-01-18T00:06:00.000+08:00

hello everyone.

Im twenty-20-dua puluh years already you know.

I want 20 presents can?

k bye.

My Favourite One

2008-01-16T12:43:00.000+08:00

Shirley Bassey- Where Do I Begin

Where do I begin?

To tell the story of how great a love can be

The sweet love story that is older than the sea

The simple truth about the love he brings to me

Where do I start?

Do not go any further if you are starving. Dangerous content.

Garuda Padang Cuisine

Sunset @ VivoCare for some?

He fills my heart with very special things,
with angel's songs & wild imaginings

2 more days to the big 2-0! Whoots!!!

Countdown to the big 2-0

2008-01-12T00:20:00.000+08:00

How time moves without much effort amazingly, sometimes makes me realize sadly, that I'm not getting any younger. To add to the devastation, my features wouldn't be of any help to decrease the number by even a year. Since I was young, literally, people always tend to add 2 years to my current age and it instantly makes me feel old and cranky. Don't ask why. Its somehow like an instant chemical reaction. Matured look + Sadrina's age = Old & Cranky.

I better not get any "Are you 22?" this year.The person will leave with some serious backstreet boys color of black and blue on his/her eyes. KIDDING.

Very very thrilled of the upcoming dinner date with my lovelies! =)

On a random thought here, I realized that I love to critisize people based on their looks or what they have currently wrapped around their body. But I do realize that Im just the same. Though criticism on people's partner is my full-time job, I do realise that my own partner isn't one with great looks/features and with a masculine structure. Nonetheless, his big heart wins all those pretty boys out there. Be it those whom I've been with or those random ones that are labelled as eyecandies. Happy 14th sweet love. Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Sayang okay?

Im in desperation to lose those pounds off my cheeks! Ouh, how I wished upon a star my hair still looks as good as that now. *Sighs*

Hello 2008

2008-01-01T15:37:00.000+08:00

Bob Marley-Waiting In Vain

Happy new year to all my munchkins! Hope you all catched the fireworks yesterday. They make me feel like a small kid all over again. How I used to be so scared of it whenever I go for NDP. kental. I know.

2007 has its ups and downs but it definitely make it a kickingly good year afterall. What made it really good was I had someone special to share it with. =) I love you lah.

I dont want to have any serious new years resolution as I tend to be so focused on it that I would break it within a few weeks. Thats just me yaw. So just go with the flow. Stay healthy ( no smoking ok sadrina) Stay happy and get wealthy(i seriously need to start saving)!

ouh yes,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BABYLOVE KACHANG MAKCIK!

have a great year ahead people!

He is Legend

2007-12-29T23:51:00.000+08:00

Maroon 5- Wont Go Home Without You

Terribly AWESOME. Goes into the list of fabulous movies in 2007.
Worth the rip off by every single cent. I did hear critics regarding the movie,
but doubts aside, the main cast is the primary attraction.
Name me one in which he was in and it sucked?
From his hilarious debut in Prince of Bel-Air to MIB, Pursuit of Happyness
Bad Boys... etc.
Fantastic in every single one. He just gets better not to forget that charm.
Just a little white hair wont kill my admiration for this heart throb.
Too sexy for a body.
I wouldn't mind being alone in the world with him.

On another note, id like to wish my parents a
HAPPY 33RD ANNIVERSARY & HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER!

Shopping with mum is love. Pure sweet love.

Its not over tonight,
but it crushes us everyday...

Farewell

2007-12-22T18:33:00.000+08:00

Feist-My Moon My Man

On 19th December 2007, my family faced yet another loss. It was terribly difficult especially for my mother as it was the death of her father. My grandfather passed away while he was sitting on the couch. He was a strong 90 years old man who hasn't been having any health problems lately. He returned to Him peacefully and Im glad of that. He took his last few breaths probably ard 12+ pm. I may not be as deeply affected compared to my other relatives due to the distance between me and him, but I sure do miss him. I feel sorry for my mother having to lose two of her parents year after year with just a difference of 14 months. I wouldn't know what Id do if I was in her shoes. No matter what, Id be there for her. I love you mummy and daddy.

Another thing died on me. My handphone. It just died! Its dead dead dead. My LCD is spoiled that means its not worth it trying to on and off it over and over again. It wont function. Sighs... I shall add that to my birthday wishlist. HEH.

My boyf has started his new job. Which means lesser time for us. I miss him dammit alot. I dont even know when Im meeting him again. How sad is that? boohoo.

I saw a very very very nice gladiators at SCHU and I feel like buying it. The brown one especially. Ouh another birthday wish!!

New year is approaching. How time flies!
PIE!

Fatty & I

2007-12-16T23:16:00.000+08:00

Puddle Of Mudd-Blurry

Whenever I listen to this song, it reminds me of kachang. How she used to be so enthu in singing along to it. hahah. Those were the days!

Anyways, today was a whole day out with my little fat sister. We did some random exercises early in the morning and our parents dropped us at Orchard and we managed to grab some great bargains. Shes such a weako. Cant even hold for long. Kents. But its fun really. Awwww.. Bonding sey.

Vampress or Alien?

Very happy indeed. No matter how much fatter or annoying you get. I still love you k.

Ouh yes.

Thank you Wan soooooo muchhhh for that great great great deal! Wooh. Kita fair and square k. ;)
I cant wait to meet my boyf tomorrow. I hope it would turn out good tomorrow. Darn it. I miss him! Argh.

Alrights. Im out~

tara.

The Settlers

2007-12-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

Today marks the end of term test and even examinations as a whole for all of us. Id sure miss our studying dates and kanchiong faces. School is ending in 2 months time. Im freaking out! Im going to miss the bunches of people in TP. SIGHHHHHHSSSS.

Anyways, we went to The Settlers just now and had a blast! for 3 hours we played, ate and drank(alot). There was alot of shouting and excitement gg on. I love every bit of it lor. so cheesy. *_*

I wont say much. Sherlyn, Linah and Ayu The excitement is building up.They like to play cheat one!Damn excited hor!Whose

TheLoser?

Who else? Ridzwan. Ultimate sore loser. HAHAHAHA.Okay last. Group photo at Donut Factory. Now Im fat. 65kg same weight as Wan. Opps. Sorry 64. -_-

Im out of here!

HITMAN

2007-12-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

Amy Winehouse - You Know Im No Good

HITMAN WAS CONFUSING BUT AGENT #47(i think so) WAS HOT. BAAH.

I WANT:
1) A NEW PAIR OF JEANS
2) TWO PRINTED TEES FROM COTTON ON
3)KNEE LENGTH SKIRT
4)RANDOM TEE AT QUEENS COUTURE

I NEED:
TO PAY MY UPCOMING HP BILL.
SIAN. -___-

what to do. get what you need not what you want. life's never fair.

better start studying. chao!

the feminine brother

2007-12-08T00:11:00.001+08:00

Ku Katakan Dengan Indah-Peterpan

Sometimes when I look at how my brother behaves and start comparing to my own behavior, I feel like we should change our sexuality. He become the big sister, and I shall be the baby brother. The way he does the household chores and gets pissed off that the girls in the house are not lifting a finger to help.The way he folds the clothes in a very awkward sitting position. The way he gets the laundry done every single day without fail. The way he positions things the way he wants it. He sounds like the male version of Monica Gallagher(?). Just that he isnt obsessed with cleaning. Thank god for that.

My parents are on a vacation right now,that means my brother is in charge. He cooked for me spaghetti today. It is the most delicious spaghetti Ive ever tasted in my whole life. Even pastamania kalah. Not to mention my mothers spaghetti is out of the question. I dont know why but its simple but the taste is kickingly good! Gosh. So gay of me to say that. I wonder what he's gg to cook tomorrow. If only he could be a better man. His future wife would surely be so pleased to have him. They can trade places. He can sit at home while she becomes the breadwinner. How cool.

I want to have a husband like that. Sometimes I feel Fad has abit of my brothers characteristics. The tidyness and chores. Just that he doesnt cook. Well the mother can do that for us. HAHA.
Right.4 days to term test and Im talking about my brother. Like Ayu would say. SYABAS.

Okaylah.Want to check my weight now. Bye!

when the going gets tough

2007-12-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

Nicole Scherzinger feat. T.I.- Whatever You Like

...the tummy gets bigger

ive been eating like a pig the past few days. what more today on such occasion.ARGH. I should start exercising. I want to be as sexy as Nicole. Keep dreaming sad. Shes like, sex goddess ok. Even I got turned on watching her. Alrights TMI.

Tuesday would be my last day at Miss Selfridge. WOOH!

I cant wait. Term test is next week and yes I am so not prepared. But i cant wait for the long one week that Im going to be alone at home( with my invisible bro).

Can go out and party! But im not a party animal. Too bad.

I need to lose 4kg. GAH.

And I really really really miss my boyfriend. =(

I feel like biting her.

My aunties call him delivery boy. HARHAR

Wrong punctuation. But its the thought that counts right? ;)

Hokey. Thats all for now. See you young folks!

Oh look!!!

2007-11-20T00:57:00.001+08:00

Im dead tired now and my eyes are as small as Zihui's. Haha. She's going to smack me after reading this.

We didnt know where else to go, and he came up with a very simple idea. Botanic Garden. Sweet. ;)He has an interest in them I guess. =SThat terrapin/tortoise is for Ridha. Psst. You can steal this picture but dont steal them away from the garden k?

The lake was so so big but they only had two swans. -_-

Whatever this thing was it was so darn cute and fast!

If only you can see my face in full zoom. I bet you'll laugh your ass off!

Im done for now.

See you young folks!

111107

2007-11-12T21:51:00.000+08:00

It starts of with a surprise lunch which definitely made a great start to the day.

Followed by endless water fun.

Though dead tired, continued to have dinner which was a mixture of Indian cuisine(Mee Goreng Extra Pedas Mamak!) and Western(Waffle with Choc Dip!Yum!)!

To end the day perfectly, soaking up the night light by the river. Ouh, its through infinity and beyond!

I Love You Mohd Fadhli! Without a doubt. <3

Surprise Surprise!

Finger Lickin' Good

Tourists

Our tired faces. (darn those eyebags are heavy! =S)

Goodnight

i love my kachang very much.

tata~

from me to you love

2007-11-11T22:56:00.000+08:00

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure that it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry cause everything's gonna be all right

People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright
No one no one no one can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one no one no one can get in the way of what I feel for you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
There's a no for certain

HAPPY 12TH SWEETHEART.
I CANT WAIT TO SPEND A WHOLE LOT MORE YEARS TO COME WITH YOU.
GOD MADE YOU FOR ME (konon macam lagu ungu tercipta untukku. hehehe) =)

This is what i call love...

welcome to the world

2007-11-09T20:34:00.001+08:00

Alicia Keys-No One

Just two more days and it marks a year in our relationship.How time really really flies. The first time we met is still so clear to me it felt like it just happened a few hours ago. I still do get butterflies in my stomach whenever Im about to meet you too. Some form of adrenaline rush I guess.How silly. From those small little nonsense to those huge matters, we managed to pull it through. And I hope we wont stop here. To me, this is just a beginning. There is definitely more of it ahead of us. I want you to know you've got my back and I hope I have yours.

Meet the very very adorable and petite AQ.

Not forgetting Syazana!

Awwwwwwwwwwww.I love kids.

Bye.

PERIOD

2007-10-30T23:17:00.000+08:00

Bila Kau Tak Disampingku-Sheila On 7

Yesterday was hell. It was a Monday, I just recovered from my so called "mums"(or however it is spelt) and that girl just had to come and join in the fun. To add to it, Monday is the longest school day of the week. ERGH! I practically ached from around 11 till god knows when. I still felt it when I woke up today morning. It got better eventually. After my lunch, I got another ache. But it was from the food. -_-

BOTAK JONES IS THE SEX BABEH!

Last Friday was my first with my darlings! They had Dory Fish Sandwich while I had the Double Botak with cheese! Crazy right. I wanted to challenge myself. Hence, Ive learnt to accept my limitations. The second time I went there, which was today, I only had single patty. My partner had Double. And I guess now he learnt his lesson. Muahahaha.

Yes. I wasnt thinking straight.

Theirs was good too! Serious! Both equally great. Yum yum.

Okay those were last Fridays lunch.

Now this was todays! I didnt finish my coleslaw and fries still though I had a single. Kents siah.bUnCiT_bOyThen, we headed to Mustafa as I wanted to get my eyeliner. They had a Deepavali Bazaar going on. Cool right that boy.Toyol jumping. yikes!ELEH.ACT SWEET.bleak.Decent photo ok? I think our pimples are symmetrical. Sehati Sejiwa beb.

Okaylah. Thats all for now. Im sick of raya outings already.

Note to self, youre broke. Dont even think of getting that.

K bye!

Chitty Chitty Bang Bang!

2007-10-22T17:48:00.000+08:00

I cant wait to work for the show!Im gonna put myself to work on my off days during school weeks! hah!

Any-o-ways, the first day of school, like always, is boring. There was no lab at 9am and the bloody lecturer didnt have the balls to inform us. Thanks dude. After which we had to wait till 1 for our lecture and that lecturer is freaky. He will walk all the way to my row and to where I sit and smile at me. How freaky is that?! Yucks. The next time, I want to sit in the middle. No school tomorrow and Wednesday! Yah Yah Yahoo!

Now, I feel like showing some pics. So here you go!

Serynna and I.

On the way to Luqman's house.

Luqmankau! His house is biggggggg.

At Linah's house. Her mum cooks one of the best ayam masak merah babe.

Look at Wan. -_-My new bf. Looks familiar?Ok I look fat.Remeber this colorful wafer thingy back in the days?It got stuck to my tongue.Look at that side parting and black handbag! Where do you think youre going?Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww.Look at the 2 kids and baby! Argh!

I simply love kids when they love me! I hate it when they get bitchy. As in all whiny and crying non stop. But I still love them though. Heh.

Thats all for now tata!

you think i would turn around?

2007-10-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

Timbaland feat One Republic-Apologize

Well, this blog is almost dead due to my negligence.Sorry my online baby. Anyways, I'd like to wish Selamat Hari Raya to all my muslim friends yeah! I know its almost been a week that we've raya-ed but hey its never too late to wish right gang?

For those non muslim ones especially those two, you'd better put your last week of holiday to good use. Next week is back to school! Im in love with my timetable but I hate the idea of the three of us being separated! Both of them are still together though. Well, at least Im still with someone I know. They are.... Wan&Co.! Im darn it excited! My only long school day is on Monday! I have two off days which are Tues and Weds and on Thurs and Fris are like half days for me! But I do feel sad though as this is the last semester for this schooling journey. Ive been through both happy and fucked up times. Hahaha. Kachang, do have a time for us to berdengdang alrights?hehe.

This Saturday is going to be a big day for us. Its sort of a judgement day as he is coming over to my house to meet my parents for raya. Im not really scared as I think, he would be able to entertain them with his antics. My sister on the other hand is super duper excited to meet him and I dont know why. 24 aug freaks.

Abang Salleh is hospitalized right now as he is diagnosed with dengue. During our visit earlier, he looked so different from the usual cheerful bubbly person that I look up to. He looked pale, skinny and drained. I hope, he gets well soon. We miss you abang! :'(

Hey you, get a grip of yourself. Forget the past as its too late to still be pondering and questioning yourself why. Its simply you. Loser.

Id like you to meet my very retarded brother at the very end of the picture.Thank you.

The tops were coincidence. There were no plannings. Believe me!

I'll update soon! Love yall!

Tara~

you know im here

2007-10-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

Im sick. Sick Sick Sick. Bad bad cold and painful sore throat throbbing headache!

how great. Im supposed to work full shift at barclays for today

and tomorrow but thanks to this, I didnt go to work today.

I dont know whether I should tell Dewi to find for someone

else to cover up for me tomorrow too.

Im still not getting any better. I cant even sleep properly. Sickening influenza! argh!

And also, sickening insomnia!

Argh!

And. the time of the month too!

Alamak.

Like want to swear only. Irritating.

School in 2 weeks time.

YAHOOOOOOO.

I MISS ALL OF MY SCHOOLMATES.

ALLLLL.

yay.okay.

piepie.

ouh so adorable!

2007-10-01T19:36:00.000+08:00

I want to get two male hamsters.
And name them Batman and Robin.
Mum seems to like how cute they are.
Dad says they stink.
Mum said, go get their house first.
Maybe I will tomorrow.
Oh im so darn excited!!!!

Ok Bye.

the hardest part

2007-09-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

And the hardest part
Was letting go not taking part
Was the hardest part

And the strangest thing
was waiting for that bell to ring
It was the strangest start

I could feel it go down
Bittersweet I could taste in my mouth
Silver lining the clouds
Oh and I
I wish that I could work it out

And the hardest part
Was letting go not taking part
You really broke my heart

And I tried to sing
But I couldn't think of anything
That was the hardest part

I could feel it go down
You left the sweetest taste in my mouth
Your silver lining the clouds
Oh and I
I wonder what it's all about

Everything I know is wrong
Everything I do just comes undone
And everything is torn apart

Weekend!Ho Ho Ho!

2007-09-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

Akon-Sorry, Blame it on me

My weekend was fa fa fun!HAHA.

Saturday

Outing with my kachang yahooo!!!before breaking our fast, we talked non stop till our voices turned rock!hahah.really, alot of catching up. almost 2 weeks or so? We headed to Breeks for break fast but, due to the full house, my order didnt came so i cancelled it. So we just had a salad and a seafood baked pasta shared together. And we got a further 10% disc as i cancelled my order! We should do that again the next time. Hahah.

Next destination, BAZAAR!!!Before we even stepped into the place, how stupid of me to say "i just hope we dont bump into people we dont want to see". And, we bumped into like 3 people from the list. Two of which are my ex. Bwargh. Yeap. I dont wish to mention names. I must say, the bazaar is pretty big. There are two roads filled but the one which leads to Joo Chiat Complex is better than the other. We didnt buy much though. Hahah.

Adjust rambs.Ouh nice nice nice!Seafood baked pasta. Not bad. Really.Yeyey. Lampu Kelap Kelip. Haha!Eh!Our third kachang lah! Hahah.

Thats all. The rest were darn retarded.

Sunday

JB YO YO.9 Donuts for RM18+ or so.

How MF cheap is that?I dont want to show any more than this as people will ask me to take it down. HAHAH.OUHHH.DELICIOUSSSS.Dont worry.Its no harm watching. Still can continue fasting ok? Cause Sadrina said so.

Alrights.

Thats all folks!

Do you have a little time?

2007-09-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

2nd day of ramadhan and it has never felt any different.Im somehow excited to celebrate raya with my significant other. Yes, it is the first. Like every year, I get really excited to go for the bazaar and I hope Kachang and I are heading there tomorrow! hurhur.

I just suddenly have a liking for hamsters after looking and watching them at the pet store in Bugis Junction. Id like to get two of them.Both males. Anyone sweet enough?

I love love The Hills.Audrina is my love. Though The Hills may not be as spicy like other shows, its realistic. They make it look like as if theyre filming on everyday life for these girls in CA.

Such a beauty. I dont know why in the show there isnt like guys going goo goo ga ga over her. Here I am going half insane watching her. GRRRRR.

Im cutting my hair on Sunday. Hope everything goes alright. Pray for me people. Haha.

Selamat Berpuasa my homies!

Toodles.

Uh Huh.

2007-09-07T00:02:00.000+08:00

Good Charlotte - Dancefloor Anthem

tenenene.

I think, Abang and Dewi are angry at me as I didnt come to work today. That little friend just had to visit me at 4am today and the rest were history. Shit you friend.

His dued birthday cake.Hehe.Look at those teeth sticking out.AWW. Outing With SJ and ZH was food food food! But i looked horrible. So no pictures of faces.Ouh! This was yesterdays outing with the colleagues to celebrate Atiqahs Birthday!
Dinner @ Breeks Y'all.Happy 20th ATIQAH! YEY.

NEXT WEEK PUASA! YAH YAH YAHOO!

Hip Hip Hooray

2007-08-31T12:16:00.000+08:00

Bad Religion-Grains of Wrath

Yesterday, 300807 marks the end of school misery and the start of FREE FREE FREEEDOOOOMMMM! How great is that? I smell victory and celebrations!ok crap. Its a good feeling to be able to sleep as and when I like and wake up as and when I like too!

The meeting with the retailers was smooth sailing as we didnt had to present! The MP and her associates were basically presenting in Mandarin and I was so close to dozing off. Hurhur.

We received a token from ATC which was a picture taken on our previous meeting with them! =S

Hello Baby~Favourites!Well.

Outing soon!yahhooo.

Im meeting my another favourite school buddy, Wan later at 4pm. A lot of things which needs to be prepared for....

He might be reading this as its a surprise, I wont let it out.Hahaha.
I need to clear the pictures in my camera as Wans face will take up 80% of the memory! Hahahahahha.Ok wan dont angry.

Till then.See ya!

P.S:I WANT TO WATCH RATATOUILLE!!!! =((

taste of ink

2007-08-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

SARCASM NOTED AND QUICKLY FORGOTTEN

Enough is enough

2007-08-28T20:00:00.000+08:00

The Moffats-I miss you like crazy

I've had enough of you. Looking at your face sickens me and triggers my temper the moment my eyes set on you. Hearing of what was being let out, I'm so surprised yet not at the same time that im being fault on yet again for your bloody hell mistakes. The thing about you is, you wont admit defeat. You wont admit youre wrong. Yet you manipulate people by that pathethic face of yours by shedding off some tears.Umpteen times I've hold on to this but I dont think I can even pretend that I know you anymore.

1) You make me like im your maid every morning

2) You blame me on your doings such as no initiativeness and being late whe you were the one.

3) You use me by making me do your things

4)There are more, but i cant think of anything else

Enough is enough. Everyone has their limitations and you have stepped over mine. I swear if you dare to pinch abit more of it, I'll give you hell.No one, and I mean no one has made me this mad before. Be it my bestest friends or my loved ones.

YOU'RE ONE INSENSITIVE BEING.

On a happier note, school is ending soon and I cant wait for that to happen! Just three more days to free free freedom! I'd definitely miss the company of my favourite girlies (Zihui&Shu Jie). I know they would be reading this and go awww.

Dont you guys dare to say I'm not sweet.

Har.

Cant wait for our meetup next week! Shopping!

Lets go to gelare!They're having half priced waffles ya know!

Ouh sweetness.

My F21 online items are taking foreeeeeeeeeeever to reach. I wonder whats causing the delay. Hrmph.

That catching up session with you was definitely priceless sweets.

I definitely miss all of this. We should do more. Do let me know when youre free and I'd take the day off and spend it with you,me and us! Hehehe.

Youre definitely the one who still knows me best! =)

Love, Id like to watch Ratatouille! Please =(

Womad 2007.Thursday 240807

Asian Dub Foundation was FABULOUS!!!

I cant wait for next year's womad yaw.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY HUNNY BUNNY!

2007-08-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FADDY~~~~~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!

I LOVE YOUUUU =)

Baby if youre gonna do it, do it right

2007-08-23T20:12:00.001+08:00

Gwen Stefani - 4 in the Morning

Ive been constipating for almost a week now. Well, if you would want to count the very pathethic shitting time I had last tues, then it would be two days. Its so difficult to shit and Ive got no fucking idea what. That bulge is really wrecking my every nerve. I feel like taking a knife and scraping it off of my body. Grrr.

Its a relief how we let our emotions flow out and have someone to listen and understand. He really knows best. I dont know how it would be like if it was someone else. Id prolly headbutt myself against the wall and die of severe bleeding due to the a crack in my skull which cut through my brains.YAHOO!Im exhilarated.HAHA.Exaggeration(?)

Stop giving me the cold shoulder will you love? You remember of what we promised? Solving everything together as soon as possible? Where has that gone to? I cant deny, it may sounded crude. But I just want to let you know of how I really feel. Theres no use keeping it from you as you are like my the other half and not sharing just doesnt feel right.
Please.Let it end soon.

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down
It’s not fair, how you are I can’t be complete,
can you give me more?

bouncy bouncy

2007-08-19T17:10:00.001+08:00

bouncy bouncy smack smack - don and drew

yesterday was nothing but FFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!

Thank you to love for that great day. But, it didnt start out good at all. Thanks makcik for listening.hehehe.ouh HAPPY 11TH TO YOU YAH!

Yesterday, I finally hopped on to the cable car with him!!! WOOOH.like finally. it was quite a rip off but i really really really wanted to take it badly.heee. thanks sweetie =)

Okay.Id just let the pictures do the talking.

In the cable car to Sentosa.I know he's scared.hurhurI like the picture.Our chill out place.How beautiful is that?Sunset + You = ♥

We took the cable back at night as Kachang said the lights are nice. And really. It is. Though the picture isnt clear, i was hopping like a 5yr old with excitement while waiting to board the cable cause the lights were so darn pretty.

Next trip would be skyride and luge! wooh! On our 10th? Yay im so excited!!!!

Okay im done.

Toodles~

Hey Hey Hey

2007-08-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

Paramore-Misery Business

Happy National Day to all!

Well, I really really wanted to catch the fireworks over at Marina Bay but my beloved is busy working and i bet there would be tons of human beings there so instead, i went to my cousins bdae party which was so not exciting. But muzaifah made my day! And helium voices with my favourite two were so terribly hilarious!

Id like to thank Wan a gazillion times for accompanying me to get myself a formal wear for my 2 upcoming presentation.So sweet of him to be able to handle the crap as there were a hell of a queue over at g2000 due to the sale.And it was a great day out dont ya agree? Though you make me fat. Wan's so funny. =)

Such a spoiler.Boboy and I.Ouh god. I can stare at him non stop.My helium gang.Well, theres pasar malam over at my place, and i cant stop craving for this!random.

Okay. I miss him heaps heaps.

Tomorrow, good luck to the S&B Team. We're facing the MP of Aljunied GRC.

YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll Be Just Fine

2007-08-07T23:17:00.000+08:00

The Used - All That Ive Got

Im fucking hurt. Im so fucking hurt. By everyone around me.

Enough of this shit.

I'll Be Just Fine Pretending Im Not.

I guess it seems like its nothing more than another phase to you.

You do as you please.

None of my words would change whatever you wish to do.

You want to talk about fair?

Look at your doings before being so arrogant of your pathethic limited actions.

Which you tend to innunciate so much.

Goodbye happy endings and fairy tales.

Spiderpig... Spiderpig...

2007-07-30T08:58:00.000+08:00

Vivo has always been the spot for couples.

And also for couples having a tiff.

HAHA.

Anyways, caught The Simpsons yesterday at GV Max.

Fucking funny shit hole ass mother.

Though the plot is stupid( it always has been)

The script and all the stupid things in the movie deserves a 3.5/5 popcorns!

That 1.5 popcorn for the very stupid plot.

And to add to it, GV Max is the bomb lah.

Anyways, I'm still in a dilemma of what to get him for his birthday.

Though someone said, "Please lah dont waste your money on him."

Hey its my money, and I can do whatever I want to it.

So what if Id be broke, its not you who is going to help me pay for my food.

Its him.

So I'd prefer suggestions from real friends who understands.

Okay my partner has arrived.

Tara~

The Saying Goes

2007-07-26T22:55:00.000+08:00

Like how they always say...

If you dont like it to be done on you, dont do it on others

Precisely.

If you dont like being hurt, dont hurt others
If you dont like to be bullied, dont bully others

I on the other hand, dont mind being teased or criticised

As I do the same

Id rather be straight then be a two faced bitch

Rather than having a facade for everyone's liking

The thing is, I dont need everyone

I pulled the trigger

2007-07-22T23:16:00.001+08:00

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus-Face Down

SERYNNA

I am not writing this as a way of getting back at you.
Instead i want you to know the real reason why i havent been in contact with you for awhile now. Its not fair to me that you keep making me feel the guilty party.
I cant deny that I don't initiate meet ups and calls whenever I'm free.
I not only do that to you, but to my other friends too. You can randomly pick and ask.
Everyday, like I always say to you, my school hours are 8.30am-5.30pm daily.
Though at times you see me quite free, but recently, i havent been.
Im tied down with meetings(If you saw one of my posts I had a picture with my groupmates in formal), re-editing of 3 reports, meeting my supervisor and stuff like that.
Im ending my SIP/MP soon so you should know how
mad it gets towards the end of every term.
You start to worry and get stressed as the workload keeps increasing.

Secondly, as most of you should know, Im coping with two jobs now.
Spinelli and also ushering at Esplanade. I sacrifice my weekends
for work at Spinelli as thats the only time i can commit.
I enjoy working there and yes, I do need the money.
I have training to go through for my 2nd job and im going through it now.
After school I will practically rush down and at the end of the day im dead tired.
With or without training, spending a whole day at school is tiring enough.
So would you call it fair that I dont meet you?

Intan, has been a friend of mine since 2004. Yeah she may be considered new compared to you
but she has grown to be a really good and great friend.
I treasure her because she knows what Im going through as she goes through it too.
The times that I spend most with her is during school and now that shes
done with her SIP, I don't see her anymore.

You always have to use my boyfriend against me. Do you even have any
idea how much time i spend with him? I meet Fad only once at most twice a week.
Everytime, its 5 hours or less. I may have been childish back then
as putting boyf as 1st priority but Ive grown over my experiences
and learned my mistakes.I now know how to balance it all,
just that you couldn't see and kept saying I'm so into him. Ive never put
my friends aside, just that you assume I did and hence
you cast yourself.

Like you say it, youre not angry neither am I. I just think its a one sided story
without my part being written and read.
I cant deny you helped me through my light years and Im thankful
and appreciate all the little or big things you did.
You have been great all this while.
I just didnt expect you to keep saying the same things over and over.

And not only you are tied down with problems.
I am too. With Mum, Dad, Sis, School, Love.
I dont think its appropriate to just call you and start crying cause it may make you feel
like I only need you when I have problems.

Better now.

Spectacular Spectacular!

2007-07-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

Nicole Kidman & Ewan McGregor-Come What May

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I Love You more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I Love You, until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will Love You
Until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song,
I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I Love You,
I Love You,
Until the end of time

I was not only mesmerized by the star of the show, but i was touched by such forbidden love. I want to watch it again with my favourite girlies.I didnt know how i could have lost interest when i first watched it.
Ouh Satine, your beautfiul.

The greatest thing you'll ever learn... is just to love, and be loved in return.

Happy Birthday Squirrel!

2007-07-11T20:10:00.000+08:00

Neil Sedaka - Oh Carol!

These are the pictures taken during chilling session on squirrels 19th birthday which falls on the 9th of July. Liah's birthday fall on the same day too! Happy belated Birthday to Liah and Squirrel! Liah hope you like the dunkins! =) Nothing much. I know. hurhur.

The groupies.Razi is disgusting.Razi's hair tied by the kachangs! =)Wa ai Kachang! Focus on the top left guy.Yet again, focus on him. Kachang stress. knnccb face.And then Theresa arrived!Singapore's Siti Nurhaliza!As freaky as it could get.

Our birthday boy!Last but not least, Happy 8th Sweetheart!

blush blush.HAHA.

okay, like this is so totally gay but, Im so in love. Ok enough. ;)

berdua denganmu pasti lebih baik

addicted.

DUNK IT

2007-07-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

travis - closer

pervert. crunchy chocolate.not that nice.serious!
our share.
not cool.

grrrr.

how you got me blinded is still a mystery.

a step further.cant wait for the 8th with you love. <3

070707

2007-07-08T11:19:00.000+08:00

arctic monkeys-fluorescent adolescent

Well, happy live earth day?

Hahahha.

I wasnt busy with that, instead i was busy with Liah's(Fad's sister) engagement day!

She is super duper hotttt.Dammit.Such a princess indeed. ;)

Well, felt like it was judgement day for me meeting the whole family.

I must say, the two sisters look more like their mother and Fad, looks so like his father. I can't imagine him looking like his father when he's old.haha.

The mother was, friendly and scary too.

Id like to thank my favourite couple(Indha) for accompanying me as I would be dumbstruck if I were to go alone.Thanks a million sweets!

Once again, bad hair day.Thank you.

My sayang No.2

Awkward.

My sayang No. 1

Now for overdued photos.Haha

After our presentation for ATC.Look at our 5th member,Mr Mozzie!

Outing with the collegues

Thats all for now!

cant wait for dunkins.tata~

happy pill!

2007-07-01T13:21:00.000+08:00

jt-lovestoned

wan!look i think he can jump higher than you!hahah!

belo

okay bye.

burning

2007-06-30T00:23:00.000+08:00

bsb-i'll never break your heart

i'll never breakkkkk your heartttt
i'll nevere make youu cryyy
id rather die than live without YOU
i'll give you all the needdd hunny thats no lie....

primary school days!kauuu.super funny.
this week has been hell for my throat.it hasnt stopped burning since i dont know when.i drink like 2litres of water a day yet i still get thirsty though i just drank a bottle.its so diff to swallow my own saliva as it gets really really painful when i do that.i guess id just have to spit it out then. :(

on top of that, somehow or rather, my stomach is giving me problems too. eversince that diarrohea incident, ive been shitting for at least twice a day. thats a good sign though but today wasnt, i had to shit almost every 2 hours and my whole stomach aches. this time, i cant even control my own bladder.thats how bad it is.and its so so watery i feel like im pee-ing sometimes.

if i just grossed you out.im sorry.i just felt like sharing.
i think, im going to do it again soon.
sighs.
im gonna die soon.die of burns from both openings.haha!

brian bsb has always been adorable before he got married.ahaha.ok bye.

four musketeers

2007-06-24T17:36:00.001+08:00

travis-closer

i feel like my stomach is about to burst!i just had a super duper filling lunch.mum made sambal sting ray.my goodnessssssss.

anyways, yesterday was super duper moper fun with indha.i met up with bf at bugis for lunch at zam zam restaurant.fuu.shiok.and we headed down to bugis village to get the fishermen pants i wanted and off to meet the cheekopeks!

thought of watching oceans 13 but it was fully booked for the early timings.damn.hence, we had no clue whatsoever of where to head to so bf suggested to go to boat quays coffee bean where we had our camwhoring session!haha.

after which, we saw dope working and headed down to merlion.i wont say much, let the pictures do the talking.

please dont mind my stupid hair.bad bad bad hair day. :S

starting picture.everybody looks pretty alright i guess.

intan stop it siah your face.

no comment.

i burped at his face.

favourite =)

almost nice.

wth.

so whose the botak one now huh?!

im gonna miss changchang once she finishes MP.sighs.nobody to sleep with me at cable tv anymore! =(

soon goodbye to spinelli.

i love thee

2007-06-19T18:35:00.000+08:00

garbage - the world is not enough

i havent been in the best moods these few days and today, my main reason definitely has to be that im down with major burns in anus due to all those things forcing themselves out which im totally not part of it.

okay.cut short.diarrohea.

i swear it caught me on the wrong moments.for example, it just had to start around 7+ while watie, krishna and i were waiting for dewi's arrival to head down to marina square. i had to run for my god damn sake tummy to the 2nd floor of raffless city.usually the 1st floor is full so i shall not waste anymore time.that was a relief.after abangs bdae, celebrating and cutting of cakes, it attacked me once we reached makansutra.so i headed to esplanade which was for my third too before we head home.

maybe i dont mean it when i say "you have never been there for me and i have to seek for another soul to turn to". maybe i didnt.but the way you've shown your neglection towards me, definitely changed my mindset of how sorry i am to blabber those words to you.
all i wanted was some comfort over my stupid little rantings on weird issues.youve been with me for long and you should know the kind of person i am.well, maybe i was over reacting when it comes to that, but when i needed someone to hold on to me and say 'it would be alright you'd be fine' you werent there.despite the fact that you were the 1st i informed regarding the terrible things i had to go through.

you ignored me the whole day.you didnt call me in the morning when you had work.and you just had to say "im off to soccer now.you take care". you expect me to be fine with those words? when i needed you to talk to me?

i dont know what more i should do or say to you.
right now, all i can say is, im deeply sorry i said those words to you but on the other hand, im painfully disappointed with you.

...dont stop being the one i need love....

omg so so fun!

2007-06-18T09:59:00.000+08:00

Get the code at ">www.winterrowd.com

i swear this is so fun and you should actually increase the volume as the sound of the p0pping is majorly cute.

have fun! =)

strike a violent pose

2007-06-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

teenagers-mcr

muzaifah my nephew.yes its a boy.weird name though. =)

nightmare in the train

2007-06-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

cheryl tweedy-lily allen

today, chill with kachang was hilarious as it has always been.from having breakfast together, to reading books on "making out in indonesian, mandarin...etc" reading them to each other and just laughing out loud at our stupidity on how weird the words could get.after which headed back to school to sleep.yeap.to sleep in front of the cable tv after which woke up and sang MCR songs out loud and made the other ppl shush us.hee.

next monday im going to bring my camera with the stand!hahah.

work was alright though it was with henry.i left him when half of his part is still not done and im not bothered to help.anyways,i think, i took the wrong train.it is even harder to get through it when you are alone.i always have kachang with me through weird train rides but not today!
opposite me, was this mid 30s malay guy who looks so freaking ugly and wears spectacles with leopard skin rims.he dresses up like a hip-hop wannabe and he, has been pretending to play the drum and strum the guitar like nobody's business since i sat down.beside him was this huge fat lady who was so huge she practically took 1 1/2 seats! beside her was this two minah one of which looks like shes pregnant and they do look very young.did i mention they had eyes on me in a bad way and i got scared.i hate minahs!

haha.okay.thats just the opposite row, on my row itself, the whole stretch is filled with clowns except for me of course. on my right, there are two emo guys whose hair seems to be rebonded! one of which has hair all over his face i cant see any features of his.yikes.his friend on the other hand, has long hair that is almost CENTRE PARTING.gosh.and both of them are super super skinny and looks so flimsy i feel weak sitting beside them.on my left, was this group of 5 early teens girls blasting some song and singing along to it with passion!and must i say this, they kept touching their hair every 10 seconds.afraid it would just fall off i guess.

so how freaky can a train ride get.yeap, i pretended to be reading a message and laugh to it when i was stuck in the moment.HAHA.

okay thats all.tomorrow danish turns 1!how time flies!
pie pie.

macam kachang is the best

2007-06-07T00:02:00.000+08:00

the cardigans-lovefools

love me love me.say that you love me.
fool me fool me go on and fool me....

before typing this entry in, i just bloghopped to some minah who listens to DANGDUT.yes dangdut! and there were two songs coming out from her blog!i stopped one player and there was another song so thats how i know there were two. The songs remind me of those cheeky uncles and busybody auntys at void decks during weddings.

i chilled with kachang yesterday.it was hell fuckerny.more details proceed to her blog as she seems to put everything in order and id do the honour for the second day of chilling which is today.

today, i slept in the library while changchang was studying for her paper tomorrow which is a sad thing though having attachment.i slept and somehow or rather i was dreaming of falling of from somewhere.i started to jump up and luckily my head didnt hit the top part of the desk.i swear it was hilarious but too bad chang2 was also asleep and didnt catch that nonsensical moment of mine.so i tried to head back to sleep.harhar.

during the morning bus ride, there was a short auntie with a fucking huge butt and no matter how much space i gave her she kept hitting my bag.its damn freaking irritating when its pretty crammed up already and she had to stand that particular spot just so she could put her bag there.i just had to push her with my bag to have space.upon reaching our destination.she somehow or rather lost balance and hit me and a guy beside her.i snorted and looked away.

stoooopid auntie.

what up with aunties nowadays?

btw,good luck kachang for tomorrow! have fun after that! =)

sweet love.

2007-06-02T18:06:00.000+08:00

i dont love you-mcr

yesterday was great with my lovelies from spin's.

the food wasnt that great as,its not up to my level of spiceness hence, i felt like hurling after the meal.

it looks delicious, and taste exquisite at the first few bites.

after multiple bites, i get a yucky weird feeling in my throat.

those people who cannot stand spicy food should go for this indonesian restaurant at riverside which is situated beside cafe iguana.

go figure!

girlies without azimah and atiqah.

missy yani and myself.

part of the food!

happy 24th bachin!har har.

the 7 amigos.

the ladies.check out waties eyes.foo steamy!
the only thorn among the roses.you can see him right?haha!

everybody loves krishna! =)

shrek 3 was cute.i want the bald shrek baby!

like so totally kents.

okay bye ah!

super bugs

2007-05-31T23:56:00.001+08:00

muse-sunburn

my umbrellas.harhar.

most loved.

since 2001 hokey!

ke-ke-kachiang!
hunny bunny!

just felt like posting pictures.hur hur.

misses with kisses

2007-05-31T22:29:00.000+08:00

radiohead-karma police

its only been two days without her presence and im missing all her cheeky smiles with her sweet tender loving care which never seems to fail to brighten up my day no matter how horrifying dreadful it could be.on the other hand, bro is sure using the opportunity to great uses.very disturbing uses.we shant question in doubt and shant elaborate in depth.

happy vesak day to all!though you may not be a buddhist to celebrate the occasion but think about it, youre having a day off from work/school to rest those aching muscles and tired eyes and cracked brains.

somehow or rather,watching potc disturbed my position being in the skin i am in. recap on history, singapore, originally named as temasek was remembered and stated clearly as a "Malay Village". being most of the population malay working as fishermens.the director of potc as i can clearly say obviously misinterpret-ed by thinking that Chinese were the first settlers on this island.and singapore in potc looked like little china.with chow yong fut's(however his name is spelled) undeniably horrendous accent.what a disgrace.

Americans are somehow 'owned' by the whites.But, truth been told, the red indians were the first settlers and they WELCOMED these whites into the country. After which, they killed the red indians.

I bet there are more to that than what ive just listed.Just speaking whats on my mind and what bothers me while watching that movie with my 2nd top notch boyfriend being as stupidly gorgeous as ever.Im talking about Johnny Depp btw. ;)

Not in need to wake up at 6.30am just to get to school as i dont have school! On top of that, having dinner cum birthday celebration for dewi and azimah with the rest of the favourite girlies. After which, ending it with sweet honey love.

cant wait!yahoo~

chau chin chau.

2007-05-28T22:39:00.001+08:00

yede yede.haha.learn to let go.i cant be bothered.thats what ive learned so far.

i love love my mum.im so gonna miss her when shes off for langkawi for 5 straight days. =(

nobody to say i love you and take care in the morning.

CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW HERE I COME!!!!

contradiction at its best

2007-05-28T19:11:00.001+08:00

alanis morissette-ironic

when you said you have ever felt losing a best friend so thats the reason why youre treating your close/good friends real good as you dont wish to lose them.well,i dont see that coming from you when it comes to me.maybe i wasnt either of that or i was just a piece of shit to you. you shoved me off when i was wondering why you were so down.never in my entire life was i ever shoved off.no matter how bad a heartache or a fight was with a friend much longer than us, never was i treated in such way maybe because ive never had a friend as sensitive as you.

i cant deny that im a villain.but im a villian towards everybody not just you.everybody in the group gets bullied and i think its fair when i get it back as its for HA-HA matters there and then and its forgotten. this isnt the 1st time,but the 3rd. the 1st time was the random message that you gave,maybe it was my fault for making you as a joke like how you phrase it,but i dont think im the only culprit doing so.due to that,i stopped teasing you as much if you realised especially about outerior matters.

Secondly, remember using my phone to message your friend? well,either you forgot to delete it or you purposely wanna make me read it.in that matter, i wasnt at fault at all.i didnt even disturb you at the start.yet i still swallow my pride and just let it be since im always the bad guy.you said i dun treat you like a human being?then how much nicer am i supposed to be?like how i treat my love?

This is the third,everybody has limitations and im a human being with limitations.no doubt everybody has their own phobia but how would anyone knew if you didnt tell?i would have been more sensitive if you told me.like about your height,i didnt mention it anymore did i?if you think im one who has a strong outerior with the same attitude inside,youre wrong.im much more vulnerable than you think i am.

I dont think it would be a loss to you losing me.Ive lost friends before,they left me.For another world.I guess you're next but in a different form.

No doubt, school wouldnt have been the same without you.

Pretty Fireworks

2007-05-25T10:01:00.000+08:00

some stupid sounds from lab mates.

finally its the end of the week and am i glad about that as im so tired of standing in the buses and feeling all crammed up after that.standing in bus 969 is such a joy to me everyday to school and EVERYDAY there is a jam at TPE i dont even know why.it gets even worse on rainy days. one time,it was so packed i was standing in front of the bus driver and on the steps was a sweaty nyonya and a guy from tp who was wearing shades which looks like goggles.out of a sudden no jerks no bumps the guy fell and grabbed my leg.i swear i was like freakingly shocked and almost kicked his face.i think he fell asleep and too shiok and thought of laying on the steps.after that, his face was flushed with embarassment.sleep somemore stupid moron.

after a week,i finally met him though i was feeling damn lethargic.i guess its due to waking up at 6.30 am and stuck in school till 5.30pm. =( we didnt have any plans as POTC timings were really bad and id end up gg back home at 12 midnight hence, we decided to have dinner and chill. we chilled at this small fountain across padang and there was some Art Festival going on and we got free show! at the end of the show they had mini FIREWORKS.definitely made my day! we shared a cup of ice blended coffee at coffee bean clarke quay and started to take random pictures and even challenged on who is a better photographer.which is so clear its me.HARHAR.

a short yet fun date.love love. <3

i really am craving to hop on to the cable car!oi indha!

chau chin chau.

blades of glory

2007-05-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

makes me wonder-maroon 5

i remember how hilarious it was watching him dancing to the beats of this.it was goddamn funny and lead me to having stomachache. <33 hence,school is starting to get boring already as we are done with our 1st report.WEEHOO. and we got a lil bit too silly together.

cherynn was busy sleeping.tsk tsk.

i really miss wans,ayus and yanas company.i miss how wan would take multiple shots with me and we could actually make a story out of it.

i really miss the way ayu would tell us stories.its always full of actions,sounds and surprises. not to mention when we study together,shes just hilarious.

i really miss yana for her crazy antics.shes constantly so bubbly and full of crap.well all of them are.i miss her karate chop.

i miss you guys. =(

anyways.went to watch blades of glory.to me.its average.didnt laugh much as i know whats going on due to the HBO trailer which practically showed ALL the funny part.so nothing is funny anymore.on top of that.I HATE WILL FERREL.i dont know how to spell his name but to me he's like a pervert in and out.even his name also.hie im will parallel.lay parallel to me.

scribble scribble.

"i see youve gotten fat"
"i see you still look like a high school girl but not hot"
....har har

bubble tea

2007-05-16T15:47:00.000+08:00

audio:zilts

im in the bze lab redo-ing some stuff that marz asked us to do.its really a pain when its all those minor stupid little things.well.im craving for vanilla oreo ice blended with pearl from A1 Chendol. Gawdddd.I feel like pee-ing but im holding on cause i feel lazy.

I watched charlie's angel with sj and zihui just now.and wow i so love lucy liu.meowwww~ i want to watch godfather but i can only rent it for a day.which means i borrow it today and have to return it by tmr morning.not bad though but by the time i reach home,id be so goddamn tired.and by 11pm im off to lala land.

i really miss my bucket of honey right now its been dayyssss since we last met and its been 2 days since we really talked. i think,today would be the third. i was supposed to get thurs and fri off due to the survey collecting we did on the 1st week of sip weekends.and,seems like we are not because we are still editing.grrr.i really reaallly miss you faddy. =(

okay i gotta go pee.daa~

eh eh kachang!

2007-05-09T09:03:00.000+08:00

muse-invincible

good morning to all and to all a good morning.im in school right now waiting for the clock to strike 930 to meet our most dearest marzuki.goodness.ive been in school too much that i dont meet my family,other friends and even my boyfriend!who by the way just came back yesterday night and i was too tired to wait for him to reach home and call me up that i slept within 5 minutes when i put my head on the pillow.im sorry....ehhehehe...

so shu jie is at the other end reading peoples journal through myspace, zihui is reading 5 people you meet in heaven and the rest of the people in the class are doing what they do best.using the comp to undesirable sites.HAHA.like real.well,im kinda pissed with that group of girls in this lab.they wont freaking open the door for us though they turned and saw us smiling at the door.hey cmon lah dey be considerate can.would a few steps kill your muscle legs?!now no more ayu and wan to open the door for me. =(

cheryn is having stomach flu.i dont think clinical medicine is enough.you need INJECTION and TLC from the nurses in the hospital.but can i just scare her a little bit regarding ghost shows that always show disturbed souls in a hospital?WAHHAHA.CHERYNN GONNA PEE IN HER PANTS.

okay i want to go sleep now.tata

"nevermind ah uncle id think about it"
"okay this is the best price i give you.you go out you cannot get this price anymore"
he kept pressing "ON" and "C" button but didnt press the price.he wanna feel like a professional pressing so many buttons thinking its alot of digits when hes supposed to press only 3.

-_-"
k bye.

milo

2007-05-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

ciara-like a boy

milo.a great human creation for the likings of many.it is an energy drink for some and a casual drink for others.unlike me, its my drug whenever im having constipation.and yes,sometimes its so powerful that i would need to shit more than once.

thats what im going through now.i love milo!!!

i hate hougang.i hate lorong ah soo.

well,all i can say is.. cabbagekangkong...kiamchaichaotaugeh...beetrootcauliflower and babykailantempeh is the funniest shit ever!

i miss fad.i miss fad.i miss fad.

faddyfaddyfaddyfaddy.lovelovelove.k enough.
lets get faking!

see you later alligator!

blinded

2007-04-29T21:51:00.000+08:00

avenged sevenfold-warmness on the soul

i miss you baby.come back soon id be waiting for you.
theres nothing like you and i.
i hate superficial morons.

MP-SIP

2007-04-19T21:13:00.000+08:00

just jack-starz in their eyes.

well well well.ive just found out that my supervisor would be Marzuki. i have to clock in at 8.30 am everyday and clock out at 5.30pm.i think i wanna go swimming everyday at school or go gym. soon enough my body tough like fergie and my boyf wont let me go.HAHA!

anyways went chilling with serynna.its been awhile and its fun! Thanks serynna! hehe. i wanna go swimming this sunday. im getting fatter.i ate too much today that my stomach hurts.later want to do crunches then vomit out all the food so that my tummy would be flat and sexay.

ok ok.id stop it.

see you later alligator.

and i know how to pronounce beige.HAHAH.:P

uhh baby.

2007-04-15T22:57:00.000+08:00

p.diddy feat keyshia cole-last night

DANISH AJMAL.

my favourite nephew is turning one in a few months time yet im thinking of what to get for this little charmer.

instead of leaving today, hed be leaving on tuesday due to his beloved friend.nyeah.but spending the whole day was pretty tiring.and i really mean 12 hours straight.

goodnight.

our love exhibition

2007-04-04T10:56:00.000+08:00

john legend-p.d.a (we just dont care)

lets go to the park...

i wanna kiss you the underneath the star...

maybe we'll go too far...

we just dont care

i hear this song at work,and when im at home 24/7.i would change the album at work and play the song over and over again till my collegues got really frustrated.when im at home,whether i listen to it or not,id sing to it on my own.and yes,another is irritated which is my sister.when im on the phone with my boyf i sing it too.but he fell asleep instead of being irritated!!!thats the first huh.i wasnt singing a lullaby! =(

so what if they watch

if they see what we do...

tuesday was food marathon!
met up with my bestest gayfriend.okok.he'd kill me if he reads this.

met wan up at bugis when i think we could have just save the trouble and met at cityhall instead.while waiting for yanas arrival we went to gelare.i finally got hold of the waffles ive been dying to have for weeks and weeks!well it was tuesday remember.half priced.wohoo!wan had a chocolate fudge cake and chocolate temptation.he really surrendered his temptation.he is madddd.

esplanade was phototaking time just duo while still waiting for the princess to arrive.dinner was at ThaiExpress!woooh.its tomyamilicious!and i think the manager of the store which is a pakcik has a crush on yana cause he gave one of the bowl of tomyam which yana and wan had the same for free!hahha.yana watch your back.

but skali the unc had a crush on wan instead.HAHAHHA.

ok i think id let the pics do the talking.

ok this picture we were trying to look sexy.guess.we suck.haha!

ok adios amigos.

FUCK EMO

2007-03-29T01:44:00.000+08:00

arctic monkeys-brianstorm

yes.FUCK EMO.
whats up with the fringe covering your vision?better still,pull all your hair to the front right from the very back!
and having to do the flipping of head thingy just so your hair or fringe would fall the way it should be.WTF?
and whats up with the all black dress ups?im fine with black metal cause i think they can pull it off but not a bunch of you kiddies!!!
and whats up with girls wearing eyeliner which you wana wear so thick and about to reach your eyebrows?!just use a black eyeshadow!save time and money!and its supposed to make your eyes look mysterious and sinister.
BUT IT MAKES YOUR EYES LOOK SO PATHETHICALLY SMALL AND IT ISNT CUTE.
arghh arghh.
dumbfucks.

ok goodnight.

miami hotness

2007-03-22T14:36:00.000+08:00

toots and the maytals-funky kingston

hot afternoon to all of you.

my eyes are fucking....haha.i feel like my eyes are half its size now.so you can imagine how fucking small it is.

but somehow or rather.im trying to accept it if he is gg there again.he's gg by air.and the days would be lesser this time.and,air transportation is much better in terms of travelling time and also the reliability.im gonna miss him without a doubt.but hey.i think he could use 1week+ off from work.i really pity his hectic schedule.i love you hunny.

let me share with you people what a great dream i had last night.

okay.i clearly remembered that i dreamt of AMI JAMES from MIAMI INK yall.

he was like.oh so fucking hot.we were gg like everywhere together.holding hands and stuff.but we didnt let each other know about our feelings till he was about to leave for something.we looked deep into each others eyes and...

me:you know.i think.i really love you.

ami:oh my god.i love you too.i thought it was just me.

me:ouh ami!

we hugged hysterically.

and then.he left on his ouh so hot motorbike.

and.then.the phone rang.SIGHHHHHHHHHH.

herm.sounds alike to my current situation huh?

let me give you a preview to you guys who have got no idea who ami james is.you ought to kill yourself for not knowing this talented dude.

lets say i love you like we mean it again.

baahhh.

if i could

2007-03-20T12:44:00.000+08:00

nelly-fly away

i think its time for an update.

its a great great relief to find that my results were good enough for me.this semester was hell. living hell.its finally over.but the next semester is yet another ride of boredom i predict. but at least we have projects out of school that would need loads of travelling so im "contented".HAHA.

obviously you guys heard of the China Man who stabbed his supervisor at work right? well. for my case.the headlines would be "Girl smashed mug at supervisors face". hahahha! well.i swear i almost did.He was as irritating as hell.one, he kept taking the mugs i was washing and washed infront of me.wen i take it back he forced it back to him.we did it for 3 TIMES.and then i like to wash under running water.its just my style.he turn the tap on and off again for 3 TIMES. and not only mugs were his precious,the plates were too!!!i cant even accidentally hit a plate onto another.wow.

if my outlet manager and store manager has got no problems with the way i work,why him? who is he.

well.i can predict i wont be long in there from the way i cope with things.

who gives a shit.

after a whole day of distance,i guess he realised his mistakes and im so happy we talked it out. the reason why i chose him because i see he has better and different values compared to others. and i know,no matter what he'd be there.

like intan said.
"make this a wonderful journey for as long as you guys are together"

id definitely do my part. =)

woohh wooh hoooo.

holla

2007-03-04T20:53:00.000+08:00

now that the school term and school year has ended, the holidays have finally come. a good 1 1/2 months break would do my brain,body and eyes good.the focus would be on work now which is okay i guess cause you dont need to use so much of your brain to serve coffee.unless its those weird foreign customers with very difficult to understand slangs.

weekends has been a major bore.yesterday,my mum didnt cook so i decided to take my sister out for linner. we had those absolutely delicious smashed chicken rice(nasi ayam penyet) at the Ayam Penyet House at Bugis. For those who have yet to try, please do. it may cost abit more compared to those you usually eat, but this is a treat for your taste buds!

today, hah. i had a reunion dinner with the collegues down at newton centre. it was a treat from Henry as a Chinese New Year dinner for all of us. and im supposed to be there by now but im stucked at home. No further questions. zip it.

My boyfriend is playing soccer still at 9pm. Typical of boys i guess.

I have a weird fetish for men in uniforms. Especially the green ones. Hehe. Okay stop it.

My guts feeling says Id have to go back to school for MLS supp paper. and thats why i didnt throw any of the MLS stuff away. Not to say im confident for MIO but lets just say i havent been failing.

Ouh how i wish the MLS teacher has a crush on me so that he'd give me some extra credits. =(
that would never happen.i noe.

Off to Big Mommas House 2 now!
Chiao.

sickening.

2007-02-26T17:38:00.000+08:00

this is sick.sick sick sick.

S-I-C-K.

SICK.

him and her?

sickening.

eew.now i really cant wait to get out of the school.

god please help me!!!

n i cant study.
since like morning.ah die.
k bye

chee chong fun.

2007-02-18T18:38:00.000+08:00

LDN-Lily Allen

today.

lets talk about people.

i dont understand some people somehow.

a friend of mine, well hes a really nice guy you see. and the way he treats girls are very different. its quite difficult to resist him since he's good looking and has his very own thinking and all. but if you really look him as a friend, you wont think about liking him and stuff. cause he by nature is a ladies man. this friend of mine doesnt open up to people easily. the only girlfriends he has is me and his "sister".

this girl lets call her A and call my friend B. A and B are schoolmates, somehow or rather they grew closer. and B being ungarded by his actions, makes A fall for him. but B, has no other feelings than friends. B has feelings for this other girl though lets name her C. somehow or rather, A grew jealous about this intimacy and connection that B and C have for each other. And, A being a girl,starts to bitch about C. C is disappointed and thought that B went around telling people about his stories with her. But things were cleared as i know C does have feelings for B. Just that i know A, isnt able to accept it when she has to face it in school. Well, FACE IT GIRL.

And as for B and C i hope more and more sparks will fly down the road for you guys!!! =)

in every relationship, there are its ups and downs.

laughters and tears which are being shared.

but all that just makes the bond tighter and the heart to grow fonder.

the main ingredient to a great relationship is being strong TOGETHER.

and all the rest falls in like the toppings on your favourite ice cream.

love is full of mysteries.

have you discovered yours?

i know im loving mine.

happy V day

2007-02-14T22:04:00.000+08:00

jibbs-does your chain hang low

a happy valentines day to those couples who celebrates this meaningless day. hey, for real dont tell me you express your love more just on this freaking day with gifts and stuff? shouldnt it be an everyday thing to say "i love you" and surprise them as and when you think is appropriate or spontaneous.

who cares.

its been a week or so ive blogged so here i am.yes im still alive.
school has been more relaxing now with most of the projects down just left with one more which will end this friday.

then it would be study week followed by two papers and HOLIDAYSSSS.
something i need for a long time.and i realise.this time the holidays would be shorter as SIP would start like asap.shitass.

im in need of sleep.and i want to lose weight.

okay.this is boring.

goodnite.

youve got me sewn

2007-02-06T00:02:00.000+08:00

it definitely was weird when you came back with my bag after a smoke with eyes that look so dull if it was alive it would pop out n run for cover.a smile being forced just to please my heart. you kept quiet for sometime n i just couldnt seem to figure out why. you wouldnt hold my hand. you wouldnt kiss me. you wouldnt even want to look me in the eye.

when you finally decided to get over it, you turned to me with eyes filled with disappointment.

him: baby, who did you meet before me?
me: huh? no one. why?
him: are you sure? just tell me the truth.
me: really.why whats wrong?
him: no nothing.
me: tell me lah.i really dont like this.
him: nothing lah.nothing.
me: ok fine.you wana go on like this so be it.
him: i read your msgs just now while waiting for you to get your waxing done.and you met somebody before meeting me.
me: huh?what msg?
him: *takes my phone and goes to the msg which says* "hey rach. I will see you at bedok mrt last cabin towards town okay? i am at tamp now. see you love."
me: *slight giggle* baby.cherynn lost her phone and used my phone to contact her friend.her name is rachel.cant you see theres a rach there?
him: i know but i was thinking of so many diff guys name.like rachoon rachini rachandran.
me: no.its rachel baby.if you dun believe me you can ask cheryn the next time you meet her ok.
him: no no baby.i believe you.just that when i saw that msg my heart just like.ermm. n i felt like shit cause history is repeating itself again.
me: you know i will never cheat on you.i love you.
him: i know.i trust you so much.i love you baby.
me: i love you too...

and didnt that make the bond even tighter than ever.

i love you cutesy wutesy.

ROAR!!!

2007-02-04T22:19:00.000+08:00

WOHOOOO.AND SINGAPORE WON!!!

I LOVE SINGAPORE!!!

damn arent i patriotic.

roar lions.

2007-01-27T23:04:00.000+08:00

benny benassi - delirium

singapore won in the penalty shoot outs.hahah.well good.but i must say, most of the malaysian players were UGLEH.like U to the G L Y ugly!fugly to the max!yucks.i was thinking of how pervertic they look like for most. especially the goalkepper.sheesh.n i got disgusted.so i stopped.

anyways.the week finally came to an end!with 3 major project submission with a presentation on monday followed by an audit yesterday how relieved could i be? two presentations for next week but they arent as big as this week so im quite relaxed now.the week has been hell but im glad everything went out fine.

had a group outing with the sec 4 cliques.a bunch of funny morons. had swensens for lunch as a birthday celebration for the 4 kiddos:- sadrina(18 jan),tian hock(19 jan), serynna(26 jan),hamiley(28 jan). after which we hanged out at some void deck near to ytss and played cards. which was fucking funny.
took photos before jaisee went off and after which all of us left.

my manager (abang salleh) has got a really good collection of shoes for his age!

when we had nowhere else to go and nothing else to do.

the 6 piece boyband shit.

certified gay.

nuff said.

happy 19th!

2007-01-18T22:16:00.000+08:00

knights of cydonia - muse

im a freak of muse. yes yes.and my sister just made me into an even freakier addict.

happy 19th birthday to meh and im very happy for this years birthday. i dont need fancy presents or big birthday cakes, all i needed was to be surrounded by my loved ones who remembers like my family, friends and my boyfriend!

id like to thank a gazillion time to all those who wished me from the first one to the i dont know how many be it on the phone, personally, messages and myspace/friendster.

i am very thankful you guys actually remembered and im so touched by everyones gestures.

thank yous:
yana, ayu,wan and lina for that hott stuff cardigan and hand made card which i think was very creative and pretty!

cherynn, shu jie, zihui and vivi for surprising me with that cute birthday cake! i am so very pleased by you all and thanx yana for making it happen as you were helping them to make it a very pleasant surprise indeed!

thank you serynna for that unknown gift!i used it very well and had so much fun!yay!

thank you mummy,daddy,bro and sis for the....
MUSE CD!
loreal facial stuff and 2 teddy bears!
hahahha.my god.they make me feel like a 9 yrs old.

i am so very happy for everything.

ouh.you must be wondering how come my boyfriend didnt get me anything right? well hahha he has yet to get it and im fine with it i just need his company.thank you so much hun for coming down all the way to my school just to spend the day with my friends and i.it is indeed splendid to have lunch and just spend the whole day together.

i dont want this week to end. =D

were you there?

2007-01-17T19:53:00.000+08:00

2+2=5 - radiohead

i dont need to say much about how fantastic muse was as everybody who were they claimed the same thing as me.they were simply so soo great that i feel every penny that ive spent on them is worthwhile.

muse + crowd + weather + company = sex

they sound exactly like how you hear them in their songs BUT better. the voice, guitars, percussions and piano all blend in beautifully. i was getting too excited for it that i went to toilet twice before we headed down there.

no doubt there were some disappointments. i expected them to play sing for absoution and unintended but it didnt come. it didnt last for 2 hours. but i think those two points are nothing compared to how much fun it was being there. they played more than 10 songs if im not wrong so thats fair!

those who werent there or werent even near you can go suck cherynns thumb.haha!

anyways.tomorrow is TP's open house and i do hope those of you reading this do come down for fun. and.tomorrow is a big day for me.

noooo.i like the number 18.
19 is odd and weird and a step closer to the digit 2.
noooooo.

anyways.
happy birthday to you sadrina!(in advance)

but it would definitely be a better birthday this year!yay. =)

cant wait for tomorrow! whoots~

eh eh dah nak balik eh.

2007-01-13T00:24:00.000+08:00

mr big- to be with you

i need to bathe.hed be back in a few hours time.
*A GRIN AS HUGE AS MY ASS*
big right.har.
id prolly drop by somewhere near his place if hes damn tired.we have to settle this misunderstanding asap.i cant and i sincerely cannot let it go on any longer. arggh ergh urgh.uew.
sotb gig tomorrow.was only informed like erm wednesday?none of them informed me till amin who wasnt even in the band asked whether im going which left me scratching my head thinking what gig he was talking about.

neither intan nor yana is going so tell me a good reason why i need to go and to add to it they didnt invite.heh.thanks guys.

school would be fun if we didnt have assignments quizzes and graded labs.if those things werent included then i doubt it would be called school.well.maybe it would be called RP instead.

id like to thank the bunch of jokers with the help of modsim quiz paper. i was giggling away non stop it was hilarious the way they tried to help.once again.appreciate it.whooots.

i love my friends. <3
and of course my boyfriend.
love you all many many.manyak manyak.

who gives a fuck right?

2007-01-09T00:19:00.000+08:00

outkast-hey ya

if you go on a trip,isnt one of the things you should get is a ticket back home unless you have no intention to go back home on the date you intend to right? if you have this big urge and excitement to meet the ppl back home who miss you a whole lot wouldnt you actually make sure you have the ticket in your hand like a week before you go home since youre gg on a trip for more than a week and there would be LESSER cockups for sure.

some cockups?all the bus just stopped working?one thing which annoys the hell out of me is that you dont even try to reason me and make me feel that its ok.a simple word of "cockup" and "sorry" wont make things okay and make me smile like id be fine.well im not fine! why not you just stay there and start a family or run a business of frying grasses.

stay there till its time for Muse and after Muse you take a bus back there again. who gives a fuck about my birthday aniways right? id be at tp opens house.yeah who gives a fuck to sadrina.

they say "what if there really is something going on?" so why cant he tell me what is really going on rather than make me ponder to myself and answer my own questions which will lead to very nonsensical full of paranoia actions?!
they say "youre just being paranoid"
for goddamn sake who wouldnt be!i love him thats why im acting this way but why does he have to be so damn secretive as not to tell me whats going on.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.

heres a shoutout.

F U C K O F F

what a sucker.

2007-01-07T20:43:00.000+08:00

+44-when your hear stops beating

my sister's in the living room laughing her hearts out to senario.its more to lame for me so i cant be bothered. ive got no idea why out of a sudden my left cheek itches and its painful when i scratch the area.

well.pimple?what more.my monthly sickness have yet to arrive so im getting annoyed with the constant pop ups of zits and pms-ing(i guess)

my hair is irritating the shits out of me i swear.my fringe is long and stubborn.i need to cut my hair layered as its freakingly thick.but id only do so when i have the cash that is next month.the process of growing always irritates the shits out of me.id layer it and cut my fringe how i always like it to be.

somehow or rather i miss that hair of mine. =(
anyways.he'll be back soon.but we're not in good terms. i dont know i just feel like finding fault.like ive told you.im pms-ing.

would you still love me tho i gain 5kg more?when my hair is all frizzy and all the rebonding goes off?my face has got newer features such as pimples and ugly spots.

would you?

its now or never.

jeng jeng jeng

2007-01-03T20:05:00.000+08:00

p.diddy feat christina - tell me

I see your picture,I smell your skin on the empty pillow, next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days
But already I´m wasting away.
I know I´ll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care
And, I miss You.

Lips are turning blue
A kiss that can't renew
I only dream of you
My beautiful
Tiptoe to your room
A starlight in the gloom
I only dream of you
And you never knew

just 6 more days and everything would be over.

school is all about:-

the best friend.

them =)

i think he likes my boyfriend.

off to school work.

toodles~

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2007-01-01T00:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2007 TO ALL!welcome 2007.wow what a year.the year has passed by just like that.

new years resolution:
1)stop smoking.(for real am gonna do that)
2)not to give up easily especially in relationships.i know i wont this time. :D
3)study harder perharps?not smarter but harder.
4)whatever happens be strong and dun cry.hey.i lasted for 7 mths last year.wooh.
5)spend more time with my friends.esp my best friend.

ouh btw.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY INTAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im trying my best not to shed.6 bombings in thai capital.pls come back.i really cant take it.come back home...

what a way to start the new year.cheers.

happy meat eating day!

2006-12-31T00:05:00.000+08:00

incubus-anna molly

selamat hari raya haji to all the muslim readers!

nahh.im not celebrating it.i dont know.guess there isnt any spice to push me to celebrate.whats there to celebrate?i usually visit my grandparents but now its singular and hence, i doubt we're visiting him as my parents friends are coming.and you know the chemistry between me and the makciks/pakciks so im going to work tomorrow.any of you care to company me?hah.abang salleh would be working too.so i guess, me ,dewi and abang would countdown together to the new year.

my left ankle is bruised.i cant walk properly i swear.i have to like take step by step and when i want to take the stairs or aniting,i have to make sure my left foot goes up first as the pressure wont be as much when it goes the second.there are times wen i accidentally put abit more pressure and it felt like my muscles were tearing and some part of it bleeding.pleasant feeling dont you think? :D

and no one was able to fetch me from work just now.so i was walking no sorry hopping alone.

i dont wana go back to school.as...i cant walk.everybody at school would laugh at me.id prolly need a wheelchair. :'(

neat huh?

the colleagues(im not sure whether thats right)

foam fun on christmas eve! =D

P.S:HAPPY 30TH BIRTHDAY ABANG!MY GOODNESS ARE YOU OLD!HURHUR.

9 days and counting.

selamat malam.

hey ho lets go.

2006-12-29T00:21:00.000+08:00

radiohead-high and dry

today is girls day out for meh.no no.not with friends but with mum and sis.finding the cheapest deal at causeway point was fun. -_- serious shit no joking.

sale is everywhere!!!its driving me nutss.whoots.
but i think giordano sale is mega fun.pushing all the aunties when digging through that huge piles of shirt.just putting over the shirt youre wearing as the queue is freaking long.
purposely throwing the shirts cause you know that there would be the sales ppl to do it for yah.
harhar.no offence to ayu tho.hee.

i wonder if i can change my top for the second time cause really ermm now the size is too big. it was too small before.hee.

i think esprit yishun is fun.its like all the oldest crap ever chunked there and and like its majorly cheap.some of it is even like 1/4 of the original price.har har.

i wonder what hes up to.okay.for the next two weeks my blog would be filled with his pictures.and if youre eyes get sore well,i dont care. :D

11 days to go and counting.im doing good.
happy anniversary mummy and daddy!
n happy birthday in advanced bro!nyeah.

goodnite ppl.

harder than i thought.

2006-12-26T23:09:00.000+08:00

brewing boots-bois in blue

the day will soon end.1 down 13 days more to go.i never thought it would be this hard. who would have thought that id end up stucked to him like uhu glue.

many said "distance/absence will make the heart grow fonder"

im so fond of him already.enough.i want him. ='(

whos gg to talk to me till i feel so darn sleepy that i will talk nonsense?for two weeks im gg to talk to myself then.

id make myself work on weekends and tire myself out so that when i go home id sleep and the day will end.

so wont you bring back my baby to me?

i'll miss you.

2006-12-22T00:51:00.000+08:00

muse-unintended

today everyone in the group was brain dead. tiring as hell as the day before everyone had their activities to get done.like they have to work,i was happily spending time with fad. i met him again today to get his phone and check out the bags that beach road could offer for his trip.

when kisses were planted on each others cheek before we bid farewell today, i felt a big bang across me when i was standing getting ready to alight the train he tapped me on my back and waved and said bye bye...

instead of leaving on the 29th,it has been pushed forward to 26th.i was shocked and unable to respond to it when i got the news through phone.i know hes leaving me for a trip not forever, but somehow or rather, we are still in the honeymoon period where if possible all you want to do is see each others face and feel each others presence. i want him to have fun but id be so fucking stressed with school workload and to add to it missing him.

b4 the news broke out, i already felt the lost of interest in attending the iguides camp. i dun have any sense of motivation and the main comm ppl just suck.i hope they read this. they are a bunch of lamers.

to my dear Wany boy,

id like to wish you a very happy 19th birthday!may you be blessed with a blissful life and have all of your birthday wishes come true! chin ups boy no matter what you have us by ur side for you ok.no more sad faces now. =)

hes special to me.
take care and have fun with Man k hun.dont forget to get me fried grasshoppers!right.:S
i lovemiss you. <3

the day is done.

2006-12-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

Love Buzz-Nirvana

Today was surprisingly dope. Work was hell yeah good. Cause freddy, one of the big boss of spinelli said "excellent latte!" hah. I made for him that excellent latte. Whoots! He surely made my day.thanks fred! But somehow, this stupid china man just had to spoil my day. He was fucking stupid that he cant seem to fucking understand what im trying to say and he acts like as if I don’t understand what he fucking wants.fucking motherfucking shit ass bitch. Woah that’s a lot.

Anyways, the rain hasnt stop pouring and well its good cause its cooling and all but I guess some activities have to be cancelled due to the rain. Sighs.

On my way home in the train, guess who boarded at orchard station?

MY FUCKING UGLY EX BOYFRIEND.

No kidding balls. I was shocked and wanted to laugh my ass off. Hes fucking ugly. Fugly. I swear. Like those mat Malaysia with long wavy hair and wears a silver bracelet that those pakcik kedai kopi likes to wear. Yall get what I mean? He kept turning to look at me but I pretended he wasnt there and messaged intan,serynna and faddy. I resorted to calling fad cause the tension he was giving me was freaking me out. His companies even kept looking.nyeah.ugly ass.

Can I say that I miss my boyfriend? Really. A lot. I hope he gets off on Wednesday as I wanna have breakfast, lunch and dinner with him. hahahha. Coolness right?

Farah came over today and asked me "Sad are you okay? You don’t seem yourself. You look like as if something bad happened to you." My reply was simple "fad would be going to thai for 2 weeks. =("

Tomorrow is yet another long day. Project meeting in the morning and work later. Work work work.

…would you believe me when I say youre the king of my heart?...

its over now.

2006-12-17T00:54:00.000+08:00

hushhush.

term test is finally over!finally finally finally.all the non stop panics and gobbling of unhealthy filled with trans fats food is over.okay.maybe not when it comes to the food part.but the stress definitely has been reduced.whoots!~anyways.now the stress is on projects.yayness. "=)"

my boyfriend would be leaving for thailand on the day i end iguides camp.how fucken sad is that?and its not like as if hes gg there say 3-5 days but get this in your head TWO FUCKING WEEKS.hurhur.tell me how in the world am i suppose to be sane?tell me ah tell me now.tell mehhhh.

anyways,i came home late today and got a bucket of naggings.im not sure how am i supposed to excuse myself tomorrow for sotbs gig."mum i have to go to work to get some stuff done see ya!" what say you?pretty good right.

happy feet has got the cutest penguins in the world ive ever known.yeah cause they're cartoons. gloria&mambo so fucken sweet.mambo reminds me of fad.bald.hahah.ouh i watched happy feet on thursday night and i hate a morning paper which i havent really studied the next day. =) coolness kan.

crazy bitch.i better stop burning the midnight oil.

today,fad and i went to vivo again!after a month long.we watched nightmare before christmas.3d cool shits.but.boring.i almost fell asleep but somethings kept me bright awake =). i miss him.booo.hah.

lalalalalla~

jaiseelan and i during mel's wedding.

nostrils revelation.

cacat face.yeyey.

im definitely gonna miss my crazy partner. =,( love yous.

17/12/2006

Dear Brother,

I am missing you dearly each passing day and sometimes when i look at your photos, tears stream down my face.
thinking about those moments we had together.
14 years with you was definitely not enough.though id say he was being unfair in taking you away from me when i was still learning about the world and needed guidance,
i still believe in him that he loves you more than anybody.
Every year on this date,without fail the whole scenario plays and it seems so real like as if it just happened yesterday...
forgive me for all the sins ive done towards you.you were my best friend before now and forever.
lets play rollerblades at home like how we used to wen i was 5 and you were 13.
lets play hide and seek.
when i couldnt find you and gave up, you were hiding in the cupboard.
how protective you were and said that youd beat up every single guy who tried to get to know me.
how we had diarrohea together and shared the same toilet.how you helped to clean my vomit.we slept at the living room while waiting for mum to come back.
how we sms each other tho we were a room away.
all the laughters we shared,smiles you gave,arguements we hated and everything else are kept close.

i miss you brother.i love you.

In Loving Memory.

Al-Fatihah.

time is running out

2006-12-07T18:32:00.000+08:00

time is running out.i have yet to start studying.i feel nauseous whenever they speak about studying.i get cramps around my stomach area and i feel a lump in my throat.my vision starts to blur and im seeing double.

okay id stop the crap.

im not looking forward to going through the tension and the pulling of hairs at ard 2am in the morning as i am not able to understand the module.im looking forward to next friday after 10.30am whereby i can go out freely once again and when i come back i have to do my projects.life has been nothing but projects projects projects study study study.

to friends ive longed miss,i have not forgotten you but i hope you guys do understand the tight schedule im in.especially friends like huda and has.sighs.=(

im even trying to squeeze some time just to meet him.my daily dosage of love madness.i dont know why but i can sense some special sparks going on everytime we talk on the phone.i really mean everytime.serynna said i need sleep as i think my eyebags are getting heavier and dark circles are forming. =,( noooo spare me from the panda image!!!okay.we should cut down on the late night talks.really.i need to use that time to study or sleep instead.but its always nice to end the day by hearing the voice of your loved one with happy thoughts while talking.

sigh...i really am in love.im lovesick.i know yana and wan would laugh at this.no two smiley for both of you.hurhurhur. -_-

first and foremost i should hit the ISO books as my MGTSYSA quiz is tomorrow.im dead. exercise 1 and 2 here i come!ouh and i think my group screwed up todays Aspects and Impacts as the other groups had TONS of points but we had just...ermm..6?

so carry on...carry on.

hahahhaha.

.you electrify my life.

toodles.

euphoria

2006-12-04T01:00:00.000+08:00

nirvana-lithium

id like to say.
IM SO HAPYYYYYYYY.IM SO FUCKING HAPPYYYYYYYYYYY.

CAUSE I BOUGHT A THUMBDRIVE. *SMILES WIDELY*

its 1gb and it costs like erm 40+!
cheap stuff.sandisk.heard of it right?i bet those comp geeks would say this while pushing their specs up with their nose "i can find something with bigger capacity yet at a cheaper price"
ahh.fuck you.hurhur!

i have yet to start mugging for term test.mug mug mug.why not use the term glass.lets get glassing.argh.lame.

mohd fadhli=♥♥♥♥♥

chey.heart sey.kents.hahahhaha!

WHOOTS!!!!

tech geek

2006-12-03T13:49:00.000+08:00

audio:paris hilton-stars are blind

im oozing with saliva everytime i look at digital cameras and creative mp3s.im so into technology i feel like a geek sometimes.i love my phone so much that im missing it so badly as it is being serviced right now and collection day is on tuesday.sighs.

looking at sony cybershot makes me go crazy.i havent touch my camera for a goddamn long time. i know, you have something new you trash the old.but seriously,i hate the screen as i have to squash my eyes even smaller than it is now to see its details.and like,i know you can buy a new memory card if the memory card is small but but,i hate how slow it would get when i use flash.especially when the battery isnt full anymore.do you know how much battery it uses up? how lame.

i want the zen vision:m badly.like really badly.i can store alot of crap with 30gb you know. like aloooootttt.tons and tons of music which i dun need to delete.photos so that i wun cram my lappy.goooodddneeessss.

i need a rich sugar daddy.a freaking rich one.but.no no.i hearts my boyf.i shall rob that sugar daddy.yegey.

im bored on a sunday sunday morninggggg.see yall.

say what.

2006-11-30T00:18:00.000+08:00

all saints-rock steady.

school is a major fucker.im sick and tired of the piling assignments and the non stop quizzes day by day and hell yeah term test is in 2 weeks time and wow do i have four fucking papers. this is freaking fun!

i hate my world issues tutor.shes a fucking bitch. "ouh no two smiley for you" "you deserve a sweet" "you better come early or you will get a zero" eh fuck kamu lah.we in tertiary not primary level. cb.

i hate my mls tutor/lecturer. hes a fucking retard. cant even read a chinese name what more a malay? fucking mofo.i still dont know his name but if i do, id fucking call him something else. maybe something hilariously stupid like his fucking face.

MGTSYSA lecturer is spasticated FULL STOP.

MODSIM is boring shit.shit shit shit.

ahh.crap crap crap.im tired.i need sleep but i have yet to study for mio quiz tomorrow.mati mati.

yana is a funny moron.peace